I dont get it…. how can you be so in love with someone and want to be with them every second of the day and when your with that person they just ignore you completely .. even when your at your own house and all they do is talk to your family and dosent even try to look for you …. I dont get y that person leads you on when you know something is going to happen but you dont want to ask what is going to happen xuz your to scared of whay that answers might be… I dont know why when you try to get closer to that pwrson they just push you away… I dont think that he understands what hes foing to me…. I feel like he hates me and is just with me because he dosent want to hurt me by braking up with me….. I dont think he knows that that would hurt a lot less then what he is doing right now.. I dont think he sees that its killing me but I love him so I pretend like im ok with what he is doing…. for all hes know im perfectly fine…. but im not he cant see that hes hurting me so much that I cry myself to sleep almost every night…. I dont think he sees that he keeps me thinking that I keep messing things up when im trying my hardest to do everything right…. he dosent even talk to me any more. He just sits there and turns on the tv everytime im over… I try to talk and then he just moves away… I try to cuddle and he pushes me off and says Im trying to watch this or its to hot or I dont want to cuz your cold…. I just dont get why he has to be so distant from me… I just want him back …. I miss him so much… hes not the same guy anymore… im scared of losing him…. but he thinks its all good and that we’re the happy.. he dosent knowbitbkills me when he pushes me any or spends more time with my family then meor my friends or his friends….. he pays more attention to his fish then he dose to me…. sorry about the long post but I just had to get it out….